HOLD FAST

Sucks to be me.

2011-06-06T10:56:00.001+08:00

It's 1050am now. I woke up, read your message, felt the pain and I'm crying. There's nothing I can do. God, why? I'm sorry for being bad and rebellious for the past few years but why do you have to put me to such ordeal? What if I choose to die and not pass this obstacle? I'm not as strong as you think I am or can be. I'm weak. Ah.. As much as I need you, want you back in my life, I think probably life is gonna be so different for both of us. The fact that you think it's okay to meet fortnightly already hurt me tad bad. You rubbed salt into my wound when you told me you don't miss me like before. It's okay that you don't but you don't see anything for you to be missing me the same. Idk what to do. I'm like lost in the jungle, hanging on the trees and not knowing how to release myself. Maybe I'm just not gonna be your partner for life, probably things will never be the same again. Idk when will I ever forget you but I seriously hope this pain can subdue because I'm losing myself from all these. I wish you all the best in whatever you do. Please forget me and find someone who deserves you better. I really want to see you, the past you, again. Take care. Best wishes, my friend.

Idk what I was waiting for.

2011-06-05T17:07:00.001+08:00

Idk what I was waiting for? Probably in hope of you to ask me out, again, thus I kept my sunday free this week. I didn't have to cancel any prior meet-up with my friends just to be able to see you because I straightaway told everyone that I'm unavailable on Sunday. I even pushed all my tuitions to a weekday in hope of ending the tuition timing earlier so that I can see you longer. Yet, I waited for nothing. When I knew my hopes were dashed, I tried asking my friends out since yesterday and everyone kept telling me that they've plans already. What's up girl, why is my life this messed up? Like shucks, I'm gonna be alone this Sunday! Fortunately, I managed to find companion in the last minute. Still, some part of me was waiting for you to ask me out. What's wrong with me, like seriously? I shouldn't even be expecting that you'll want to meet me every single week. I've many friends who wants to meet me before I fly to London but why aren't you inclusive in the list? I just gotta learn to move on, to survive life without hoping to see you. I promised myself to never be this foolish again. Count yourself lucky if you find myself free on a weekend again.

Bless me with wisdom

2011-06-02T02:13:00.001+08:00

The following entry will be posted in Chinese because I've always personally think that Chinese is able to express feelings better than English. However, if you were to notice any error, please pardon me as my Chinese isn't very good.

在他人的手里，我满脑子都在想着你。不知不觉，我发现到其实我还是深深地爱着你。为何老天爷要这样的折磨我？我到底上辈子做错了什么，为何要象现在这样得惩罚我？为什么我的决定竟然会遭受到这种结果？人总是说，＂从哪里跌倒就从哪里爬起来。＂但问题是，我到底有没有办法从我跌倒的地方爬起来呢？

我很清楚自己做或选错，要自己承担。但为什么会连累到他人的心？为什么我选择之后才发现到他有多么的爱我？为什么爱这个字要这么复杂？为什么就不能让人生就平平淡淡的过日子？我的心，就如心如刀割，很痛，很痛。我很想就这样拥抱着你，永远都不放开。

自从发现到自己还有多么的喜欢、爱你，我就夜夜失眠和满脑里都是烦恼。真的好希望能象往常一样在你的旁边睡个好觉。真的好久没有一躺在床上就睡觉了。我到底几时才能恢复我正常的睡眠呢？好期待又能在你的怀抱睡着。

那一天会到来吗？ :(

Mother's day

2011-05-08T12:35:00.001+08:00

On this annual occasion, I would like to thank my mother for her unconditional love and continuous upbringing. Without her teachings, I had probably be an average kid and not even taking up a degree course at all. It is her countless effort in ensuring that this family is bonded together and I know that whenever I need help, I can always turn around to seek comfort from them.

Though she may be a little too naggy, a little too grumpy at times, gets easily snapped by nitty gritty stuff, likes to bicker with me at all sorts of stuff, I still love her for being this way as these memories have been carved inside my heart. Nothing can change it and it is these memories that matters the most to me.

Last year, I had to wish 2 mothers. This year? Only 1. Put the blame on me.

Wishing all mothers happy mother's day and for their life to be filled with youthfulness and prosperity. *MUACK!

Exam 2011

2011-05-06T00:16:00.001+08:00

I am down with flu and some irritation at throat. Seriously, why find me when this is my exam period?

04/05, Wednesday, was my economics paper and I MUST say that this year's paper was damn difficult and different. I tried all the questions from 2005-2010, in hope of achieving a first class grade for this module but apparently I think my hopes were dashed. Plus, I did not manage to finish 1 short micro and 0.5 long macro question. Oh shucks, there goes 21 marks. All that I can do now is to hope that there is moderation and the bell curve would actually be beneficial to me.

05/05, Thursday, was my statistics paper. Though it was supposed to be easy if you remembered all the formulas and understood the concepts well, I think I will get a moderate pass mark only. I was not able to complete my paper again.. I was like trying to show off my handwriting? Writing really slowly and taking my own sweet time to complete the questions. Argh, seriously, what's wrong with me? In addition, I think I annoyed people around me with my "ahem ahem" and "kekeke" because my throat was itching real badly.

I will be taking my mathematics paper later. I totally have no confidence in this module and even am afraid of failing it. I used to like mathematics and be relatively good at it during my secondary 4 days. Look now, what has studying in republic polytechnic done to me? I totally did not touch mathematics from age of 16 till now. (FYI, I am 21 this year.) If I had gone to other polytechnic, I would probably have not forgotten how to do the problems already. No point crying over spilled milk and the only thing I can do is to practice, practice and practice.

There is 2 more papers to go, sociology on 10/05 and introduction to business management on 12/05. I cannot wait for 12/05 at 530pm. It will probably be one of the best time in 2011 and heaving a big sigh of relief. Screaming loudly at the top of my voice, "IT IS HOLIDAY!!! AWESOME SHIET!!!"

Hope I can persevere till 12/05. Hoho, cannot wait to relax! I totally dread the need to study.

To that him

2011-05-02T02:00:00.001+08:00

After living for almost 21 years, I realized I made the world most stupidest mistake last year. I always comment that others are stupid for doing something irrational but hey, guess this is where karma took place. I did something that I guess I will regret for as long as I live.

No one will ever understand my current feelings now. I feel like as though I'm haunted by my own stupidity, heart squeezed up in a puny box, brain filled with multiple thoughts and mouth wanting to rant so much stuff out. I have no idea who to tell because I will be labelled as a bitch after telling them how I feel.

Seriously, I need a place to write how I feel so can readers of my blog just ignore whatever I write here? If you can't, it is perfectly okay because I had totally understand how you will feel towards having a friend like me. If you can, thank god for being magnanimous and still befriending me despite my major flaw.

I think I'm in love, not with the person you think I am with. I have no idea why I am doing what I am doing now but honestly, I have a strong urge to talk to you. I just want to see your name appearing on my screen once again. You just make my heart flutter. I think of you almost every time and I hope I did not have to think of you either because I know it's wrong. I know whatever I am hoping in me now will never ever happen because I have hurt you way too much for everything to be back the same again.

God. Please bless me with wisdom and rationality in the near future if I ever have to make such choice again. I do not want to live with regrets like how I am living right now.

As I typed this post, tears are overwhelming in my eyes because deep down inside me, I know things will never be the same again. I know this grave mistake will probably cause my future happiness. I know I will regret making this decision forever. I know this will haunt me for a period of time. Though it hurts. I wish you all the best.

Please forgive me for being a bitch.

With love,
Geraldine.

643

2011-03-02T13:26:00.004+08:00

I had my Anterior Cruciate Ligament (ACL) operation on February 18th, Friday.
Initially I was very cool about having an operation, no fear was instilled in me.
However, as I walked to the admission counter in Gleneagles Hospital,
I started wondering whether these were all real or just a dream.
No words can be used to describe the kind of fear while waiting for the surgery to begin.
Tears overwhelmed me while I was in the holding room and fortunately,
I had my mother's companion if not I guess the flow of tears would have been worse.

Like any other normal procedure, I "slept" after the anaethestic was injected.
Everything was already completed after I regained consciousness.
I could vaguely remember my mother, the surgeon and his assistant talking when I woke up.
Within a few minutes, I fell back to sleep again.
The next moment when I opened my eyes, I saw Jinhui.
I felt real happy because though we were not very close, she came to visit me! :)
I have many people I want to thank.

Thank you Amelia, Annabel, Quanhong and Derek for coming.
Thank you Hanchuan for your companion over the phone when I was awake in the ward.
Thank you Amelia, Sheihyiin, Lingdi, Quanhong, Kent, Zixiang, Hanchuan, Kevin, Allan
& (more to come) for the visit at my house ever since I was discharged.
Thank you to all those who have expressed concern for my surgery.

They say 1-2 good friends are enough to walk the whole mile and I am glad I have a bunch! :)

642

2011-02-09T16:49:00.004+08:00

CNY has past in a jiffy.

At the end of CNY, I will always say this to myself, ''It will be the same again next year."

In the blink of an eye, the same cycle repeats itself again.

This is how fast time flies.

Like what I mentioned in the previous post,

whenever my relatives asked about my "friend",

I just shook my head and said, "没有了."

Then my relatives will tell me, "你还年青，慢慢找，会找到更好的."

It is time for me to get back in the right mode of life.

I had enough fun and doing sufficient stuff to ruin my life.

Books, I am coming back to you.

More fun after May 12, my last paper!

641

2011-01-31T04:08:00.003+08:00

This is my first proper post for year 2011 and after MIA-ing for so long.

Chinese New Year (CNY) is just around the corner, in 3 days time.
Perhapse I do not look forward to it as much as when I was young,
but the pre-CNY period has always been something I would enjoy.
The shopping for new clothes, undergarments, accessories, shoes, etc. is totally heaven.
I admit that I do shop around the whole year round,
but I do not buy everything new in at least a month.

This year is a little different because my elder brother would not be celebrating with us.
Seems a little weird since I always had him celebrating CNY for the past 20 years.
Though he has always been very strict with me, I must say he really cares for me.
I dare to say that he would EASILY be the best brother anyone can ever have.
I am a little thrilled for his return for 2 reasons.
1) I miss him and this has to be the longest I have not met him throughout my life.
2) In July, I will receive an early 21st birthday present of my choice.
It is pretty amazing that my thrifty brother would be willing to spend $300-$400 on me.

Plus, for the past 3 CNY, I had a boyfriend to celebrate with.
This year, I probably have to face many questions which I totally dread.
I have to put on a smile on my face and say, "We've broken up."

640

2011-01-26T04:01:00.004+08:00

10 THINGS TO UPDATE ABOUT MYSELF:

1) I will remember 25-01-2011 forever because I was hit by 2 hard rocks.
2) I have torn my ACL & may require surgery which I am seriously scared of.
3) I might not be able to play basketball again due to the strict discipline of my parents.
4) I have not been studying seriously and I should get down to business soon.
5) I have been spending alot of money on clothes & I will be penniless soon.
6) I am loving eyeliner & eyebrow shadow more & more, as the day goes by.
7) I hate lousy drivers especially when they drive posh cars.
8) I have not been discipline enough on my diet plan & I should get back on track soon.
9) I have a screwed up body clock now.
10) I will be back to regular blogging soon!

See you (:

639

2010-05-12T00:05:00.005+08:00

WITHOUT HER WOMB TO KEEP ME IN, I WOULDNT BE HERE..

On 08/05/2010, Saturday.

Upon request from my mum to accompany her to the tour briefing,

I felt bad for having to turn her down because of training again so I went along with her.

I suppose she did not want to be there alone as my dad had to work that day.

So, my boyfriend and I went along with her and she drove us to my boyfriend's house.

My boyfriend and I went to The Crab Village to have our dinner with my boyfriend's parents.

I have 2 "mum" so I have to celebrate Mother's Day twice, likewise for "dad" too.

It means more expenditure as I need to buy gifts as a respect to the elderly.

Yet, I know these would be all worthwhile because it put a smile on their face for a few seconds.

On 09/05/2010, Sunday.

I remember this day quite vividly because I had to rush tuition from 930am to 5pm.

Thereafter, my family came to fetch me and we went to Royal Brasserie for buffet dinner.

They served mocktail to mums and gave complimentary father's day vouchers to dad!

A wide spread of menu and different from their usuals, probably because of the occassion!

I remember myself looking into your eyes and all that I saw was our future.

638

2010-05-02T23:36:00.003+08:00

WENT OUT OF TOWN BUT WAS LIKE ANY OTHER ORDINARY DAYS..

I had my hair chopped off till a rather short length on Friday.
I had only an hour of sleep before roaming around Malaysia.
Totally like a zombie, wanting to close my eyes anytime and whenever possible.

We went eating, shopping and watching fireflies.
The meals were delicious and definitely worth every penny as it was damn cheap!
As the fireflies prefered resting on trees, the trees ended up looking like Christmas trees.
I did not take any picture of the fireflies because we were not suppose to.
Some baddies were snapping away but went whining that they were not able to capture it.

Anyway, some very random pictures.
I only started taking pictures when the day was already coming to an end.

Will you look me in my eyes like you always do, from now till the end of my life?

637

2010-04-20T01:54:00.000+08:00

BEHIND EVERY BEAUTIFUL THING, THERE IS SOME KIND OF PAIN..

I hope you still remember the significance of this picture.

I do not need anything from you - romantic surprises or extravagant gifts.

The things that I want from you are far too simple.

Love me, be faithful to me, care for me, take good care of me, understand me, & lastly..

TO REMEMBER OUR ANNIVERSARY FOR GOD DAMN SAKE.

Ask yourself, how many times have you forgotten about it?

Does this day not mean anything special to you?

I do not expect monthly gifts, yearly gifts, birthday gifts or any kind of gift.

I just want you to remember and thank us for having each other till now.

Is it so troublesome to note number 18 on every month of the calender?

Only the person that hurts you, can make you feel better.

636

2010-04-18T23:40:00.004+08:00

ME PLUS YOU, IMMA TELL YOU ONE TIME..

Blond hair > Red > Brown > Blue black > Blond > Black > Brown > Black
No matter how much I have changed on my appearance,
I still love you the same and I hope you will love me despite of my outlook too.
Be it whether I am young and energetic or old and wrinkly, please do love me still.

2.5 years we have past and we know how fast time has thrust.
Hold me tight and hug me close, never to leave me struggling on my toes.
Look at me and kiss me tonight, for I will never be out of your sight.
Together we will write the best love story of our life.

And boy, you are my one love, my one heart, my one life for sure.

635

2010-01-13T01:10:00.006+08:00

AT THIS MOMENT OF MY LIFE, I STOOD BY TO THINK..

December 2009 and January 2010 was blasted with tons of activities.

I have really left out my friends out of my life for quite some time.

I guess it is time to get/find it back.

Apologize sincerely for not being a loyal/reachable/friendly/caring friend.

I will try to be one in the years to come.

Anyway, these days I have a burning urge to play basketball again.

Kind of contemplating whether to take it up competitively/leisurely/never.

Several worries on my mind which are delaying my decision-making process.

Amazingly, my back still hurts most of the time even though I have not played seriously for 2 years.

If I were to play, would I have sufficient time for my family/boy/tuition?

To many, at this point in time, making money is not as important as enjoying life to the fullest.

The thing is I do not want to take pocket money from my parents, which I have not for 1 year or so.

Also, I want to learn to be independent because I know I cannot rely on them for life.

However, I am worried that if I were to choose money over basketball, I will regret.

Is it possible to kill my feelings for basketball yet again?

Take me up and take me away as I will follow where my heart will stay.

634

2010-01-10T00:28:00.003+08:00

EDITTING OF FINAL YEAR REPORT IS SUCH A CHORE..

I am so getting out of polytechnic and will be leaving with a diploma.

Not sure whether it is useful/useless, just know it can get me to at least another level - degree!

However, leaving school also mean lesser time to meet my boy already.

Nonetheless, together we will try our best to make this relationship work out great.

Thought of love and you came running pass my mind.

633

2009-12-27T01:52:00.005+08:00

AS WE WALK DOWN THE ROAD OF LIFE..

Home > ION > Wisma > Taka > Heeren > Cineleisure > 313 > Newton > Home

Yay to me, because I finally found my ideal top for Chinese New Year.

I know you might think I am quite a kiasu person.

Did so because I totally detest last minute shopping prior to the festival!

I love days like these - we had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun!

632

2009-12-12T00:50:00.007+08:00

CLIMB UP THE TROUBLES AND CONQUER THEM ALL..

Step ahead and look at me.

Am I not worth for you to see?

Walk down streets with dearly me.

Am I not worth for you to live?

Run across roads and read my life.

Am I not worth for you to strive?

Take my hands and hold it tight.

Am I not worth for you to fight?

Clinch the chance for you and I.

Am I not worth for you to like?

Close your eyes and count to ten.

Am I not worth for you to strain?

Tell me now as I would like to know.

Am I worth for you to crave?

If I am worth it and so can I,

ask you a question for clueless light?

With a melodious voice and a wrenching heart.

631

2009-11-18T01:55:00.004+08:00

25TH MONTHSARY AND COUNTING MORE..

Every love needs four hands to write the story on.
Tolerance and acceptance come and go along.
For the love that we have, with all the might that we give,
all obstacles will be lightened with a drift.
It is not about what we think, but about what we do.
If we were to stand together and be a laughing stock,
it does not matter as long as we have each other by the side.
All the love that we have will withstand all strikes.
By hook or by crook, we will survive the fight.

Yours truly, Geraldine.

630

2009-10-24T23:45:00.004+08:00

WHEN THE WORLD IS EXTREMELY APART..

Though the size of the picture contradicts alot, I like can already~~~
We went to eat Jurong Point's Fish & Co's Fish & Chips, oily but yummy.
Thereafter, we went to Durian Empire to have durian crepe, waffle and pancake.

Please god, let us be together happily ever after.

629

2009-10-18T23:43:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 2ND YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO BOTH OF US..

We went to Ritz Carlton's Greenhouse for dinner buffet.

I am irritated because THERE IS NO PICTURE OF BOTH OF US!

628

2009-10-06T00:44:00.006+08:00

IT IS SUCH AN AMAZEMENT TO KNOW WHAT WAS NEVER KNOWN..

Our very first picture taken despite going out once every month since August.

Okay, I need help in slimming more, anyone?

You are such a wonder that I could not believe that I actually own you.

627

2009-09-30T02:43:00.003+08:00

WHEN A SEED GROWS TO A SEEDLING AND TO A PLANT..

There is a new addition to the Kwek family and I am an aunt now.
But she is too cute for me to not be an aunt, so no choice!

Just when the sun goes down, I want to run to you and hug you till the sun comes up.

626

2009-09-28T01:09:00.006+08:00

THE SUN IN THE SKY BLOOMS THE FLOWER IN THE GARDEN..

Our footsteps were left at Marina Square, Suntec City and Raffles Place.
Dinner was at Shokudo and I must say I really love their Salmon Katsu Curry Rice.
+ Grilled Mushroom, Grilled Unagi with Cheese Topping, Grilled Teriyaki Squid..
Gosh, totally in love with fabulous food.
Since I do not grow vertically but horizontally, I guess I should watch where all these food go.

Know what?
Out of all the hair colours I have tried, I think I will stick to black.
Out of all I have done to be slimmer, I am finally seeing something.
Out of all the time, I am into heels (yknow those really hawt kinda ones).

Even when you have lots of wrinkles, I will still love you the same.

625

2009-09-20T01:13:00.002+08:00

JUST HOW MUCH THIS GUY HAS CHANGED MY LIFE..

To my dearest boy,

Its only a month to our 2nd year anniversary and look, how fast time flies.
Every nitty gritty stuff in our relationship would make or break the future.
I know I have always been worrying that we will not last longer than 3 years,
because most couples tend to get bored of each other or bored over quarelling.
Though the future is unpredictable, the road is set and chosen by us.
As long as we both stay faithful and loving together, I know.. nothing can break us apart.
Each time I look into your eyes, I know you love me deep deep darling.
Sometimes, it just warms my heart so much to be able to find someone like you.
I want to keep you right by my side and I promise to shower you with all the love that I have.

624

2009-08-08T23:03:00.007+08:00

GIVE ME ONE MORE NIGHT AND I WILL MAKE YOU ALL MINE TONIGHT..

Today is the eve of Singapore's birthday!
My family, my boy and I went to The Fullerton for dim sum buffet.
It is only $28++ per person and I must say, it is definitely worth the price.
Though there are some dim sum that were not to my preference, the others were YUMMY!
Dinner was at my childhood location, Hougang!
We had our favourite Hokkien Mee and it never fails to bring back memories.
Did you even notice how fast the time flies and how much the country is changing?

My hair is back to black, super black again!
I know, I know, I am super fickle-minded and it is a waste of money.

I was blinded by the past but now, all I want is to be with you for the rest of my life.

623

2009-08-04T01:14:00.007+08:00

THE THINGS I DO EVERYDAY IS ENOUGH TO FILL MY STOMACH..
Let me see.. What have I been doing recently?
- Went town and round to buy present.
- Watched the haunting in connecticut and scared the hell-out-of my boy and I.
- Tampines 1, Hajilane and Bugis street have Yichuan and I's footprints.
- Diarrhoea until brought my pillow into my toilet to sleep, steady bowl?
- Almost got into an accident (twice) while driving on the expressway, pardon me, was sleepy!

Okay, here are another 5 pictures taken in Europe.
I always look uglier than usual during tours because I am just too lazy to attend to my hair.

This is me.
I was looking at chocolates but someone so sneaky, take my photo.

Okay, this is a fat me who cried after taking Mt Titlis' cable car.
You see, I have acrophobia and I was sitting on some chair.
Then my family and boyfriend were standing and their ground would turn 360.
Nobody to accompany me and the fear triggered my tears to drop.

The world's highest ATM machine with an ugly toot face of mine.

My father and I outside pizza and pasta shop.
I am seriously sick of pizza and pasta and have not ate any yet ever since I got back.
Anyway, we bought ice cream there too. (left side of the picture)
Though their ice cream was super pricey, we ate ice cream almost everytime we see 1 shop.

A place which looks too "art" to be believed.
Switzerland is way too beautiful and pictorial.

When my heart has long belonged to you.

622

2009-07-27T00:22:00.009+08:00

IN LIFE, WE HAVE TO LEARN ABOUT SO MANY THINGS..
At times, I just wonder off into space and think inside me,
"Am I doing what I want in life? Am I going the right direction?"
I have no one to rely on except myself.

When I am in the crowd, I wished for someone to stop and notice me.
I do not need superficial care and concern, that was never what I was looking for.
I want love, I need love and I have to be shown that I am loved.

While continuing the path of life, many times I got myself into dilemma.
"Should I go here or there? What should I do if I get caught there?"
Suddenly, everything is moving at such a fast pace and I am trying every bit to catch up.

Its amazing that I trusted a bastard's love and got blinded by a genuine one.
When will I ever learn to open up my heart and accept whatever happened in the past?
Would I be able to wake up one day and learn that no matter what we do,
the genuine one would also stay by me till old and wrinkly, till either of us die?

As much as I cannot stand those skimply dressed girls..
As much as I worry that someday he will just turn his back and leave..
As much as I fear the day someone else enters his heart..
There is nothing much I can do either, can I?

Why and how can love just fade away after being with each other for so many years?
I thought love was supposed to be something so beautiful and shared between 2 person.
How could it even be possible for someone else to enter and become a triangle?
One by one, my friends, my friends' friends.. are down because of love.

What proof do I have that I will be in your heart till the very day I die?

621

2009-07-02T00:31:00.006+08:00

ITS BETWEEN YOU AND THE WORLD..

I am going to start rioting now..

I need sushi, I NEED sushi, I NEED SUSHI!!

Not even a single bite of sushi ever since I got back to Singapore.

Life should be filled with sushi, sushi and more sushi!!

I have a dream, a song to sing, to help me cope with anything.

If you see the wonder of the fairytale, you can take the future even if you fail.

I believe in angels, something good in everything I see.

I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me.

I'll cross the stream, I have a dream..

(ABBA - I have a dream)

Am I being too unreasonable or are you forgetting your promises?

620

2009-07-01T02:17:00.004+08:00

WHEN YOUR HEART TURNS TO BE AS COLD AS ICE..

I am currently under medication because I have cough, flu, sorethroat and slight headache.
The medication that the doctor prescribed super power because it makes me feel super sleepy!

Not only do I want happy ending in my dreams, I want it in reality too.

619

2009-06-23T22:56:00.010+08:00

THIS IS HOME, TRULY, WHERE I KNOW I MUST BE..

The future is unpredictable but one should not allow it's unpredictability affect our present.

The past of someone should not affect what you think at the present or the future.

Yesterday is a history, today is a gift, tomorrow is a mystery.
What I am in the past and at the present is attributed to my parents,

but what I am in the future lies in what I choose and preach.

Which way should I go?

Even when the storms are here, I will brave it, to be with you.

618

2009-06-18T00:40:00.004+08:00

YOU FILL THE HOLE IN MY HEART..

HAPPY 20th ANNIVERSARY DARLING!
The love within us will stay till we die, from now and forever.

Hug me tight and promise me that your heart will always be mine.

617

2009-06-16T22:33:00.006+08:00

NOTHING BEATS THE LIFESTYLE OF A TRAVELLER..

If you thought the background was a painting, your eyes got tricked.
In fact, the scenaries in Switzerland showed much resemblance to oil painting.
Listen to the wind, view the flow of the lake and smell the fresh flowers.. such a wonder.

1st- Cheese fondue (with wine) that was matched with bread
2nd - Soup fondue that was to cook chicken and pork slices
3rd - Chocolate fondue that was covered over strawberry, banana, apple and marshmallow

It is a deal to make our lives better and to be responsible to each other for whatever we do.

616

2009-06-11T02:01:00.004+08:00

WHEN IT IS JUST ABOUT YOU AND ME..

Now its 2am in Singapore while in Europe, it is only 8pm.
The sky is shining ever so brightly and the cool breeze brushes pass your face.
Still, I miss my bolster, laksa, sushi, sushi and more sushi.
Kind of feeling hungry now, I need to kill the crave for sushi and maybe KFC.
We had Macdonalds lunch for 3 days because we just got too bored over western food.
Wonder upon the star with the question of "why they do not have KFC!"
I purchased quite a number of things which are to be used for the coming Chinese New Year.
Not kiasu, but have to have a certain limit of self contol to prevent being a spendthrift.

If only I had a bowl of laksa and a few pieces of succulent salmon with me, right now..

615

2009-06-10T21:58:00.003+08:00

PLAY TILL THE SKY GOES AWAY..

We spent an enjoyable 12 day holiday in Italy, Switzerland and France.
The vintagey buildings, pictorial sceneries and exorbitant items summed up the whole event.
Pizza and pasta caused me to be nauseous and I suffered an uncontrollable repellence.
Though the weather there was chilly, I still prefer Singapore.
Once a Singaporean, always a Singaporean.
Whatsmore, its just all meant to be an eye opener and gratifying holiday.

Because I love you.

614

2009-05-22T22:55:00.008+08:00

DOES NOT MATTER WHO YOU ARE AND WHERE YOU WENT..

I am prosperous because I am fat.
In the throes of trying hard to lose weight, I have been eating a lot.

It was just then, that I realized you were not someone I thought I had understood well.

613

2009-05-16T23:58:00.006+08:00

THRASH YOUR HEART, SING YOUR SONG AND DANCE TO YOUR SOUL..

Bad pictures because I used my lousy LG Secret to take those pictures, pardon me.

So, we finally went into the world after being couch potatoes for prolly 3 months?

Yet, just within 1 day, we combed the whole of City Hall down already.. SG so small!

Raffles City -> Funan IT Mall -> Peninsula Plaza -> Marina Square -> Suntec City

Hey, we did not go Peninsula to buy coloured skinnies okay?

We went to look for tour agencies for our August/September trip to Genting.

Anyway, we watched Herbie on Channel 5 while dining in Fish and Co.

Very much sinful because the oil was so visible that I could not bear to open my eyes.

Nevertheless, its the "one bite and you are hooked!" thingy that made me eat on.

612

2009-05-11T23:31:00.002+08:00

WE HAD A MAGNIFICENT WEEKEND GETAWAY..

We got onto Superstar Virgo on Friday night, right after school.

Basically, we were practically like mad dogs trying to rush here and there.

All we did was eat, walked around the ship, entered the casino and relax~

Guess what, I heng heng tio Jackpot! But small amount of money only.

Europe, here we come baby!

611

2009-04-16T00:12:00.007+08:00

WHEN BOY MEETS GIRL, WHEN MARS MEETS VENUS..

因为对爱情有所期待，

Because you held hopes for love,
所以难免会有些失望。

that is why it is inevitable that you feel disappointed.
你还是会选择继续的往前走，

Yet you still choose to continue walking forward,
因为你快乐的时光比伤心还多了一万倍，

because the times when you were happy is ten thousand times of your sadness,
因为你知道它就是你一生中在找的幸福。

because you know that is the happiness you had been looking for in your life.

Sad to say, I have no pictures to post lately because I have not been going out.

(Meeting my boy, literature review, final year project meetings, tuitions, driving lessons)

Fortunately, I am done with literature review.

(sibei heng, heng lao tian ye bobi =P)

Holiday is ending pretty soon and the thought of school is just ewwwwwwwww.

I just have to pass through the 1st semester smoothly and 2 days of school for me in the 2nd.

Come to think of it, this is going to be my final year in polytechnic and age is passing me.

Still quite unsure which direction to go first but I hope my business plan succeeds.

2016 darling <3

610

2009-04-12T01:13:00.004+08:00

1 IS OKAY, 2-4 IS DEFINITELY NOT, HOW NOW BROWN COW..

1) When you are in love with the perfect person, you just feel so blissed.
2) When you are in amidst of dilemna, you get so confused.
3) When you know that what you have done for FYP is wrong, you feel like crying.
4) When you know that you are fat, you will be sosososo angry.

After reading through some resource given by my FYP team mate regarding literature review,
I got so clueless as to how I should get about continuing with my piece of shit, nabehxzxzxz..
No mood! I still do not have the mood to get down to real business.
Slaughter me, please? :(

DARLING, I NEED YOU SO BADLY NOW!

609

2009-03-26T03:21:00.002+08:00

YOU WERE THE REASON I WOKE UP WITH A SMILE TODAY..

Yesterday
My initial plan was to change Singapore dollars to Euros at Chinatown with my boy.
Plan changed - my mother thinks Chinatown has alot of pickpockets and scared I kena scammed.
So, my boy and I caught "Paul Blart Mall Cop" at The Cathay.
The starting was super not catchy but the ending admended the feelings I had.
We walked from The Cathay to Far East Plaza and I bought nothing.
I NEED TO SAVE MONEY, I NEED TO SAVE MONEY, I NEED TO SAVE MONEY!
I went to run at Jurong West Stadium and I hit 4km again.
I am desperately trying to slim down and not have so much fats inside me!

Darling, the time now reads 320am.. I think you will kill me.
HAHAHAHEHEHEHOHOHOHOLALALALA.

608

2009-03-24T02:55:00.004+08:00

YOU CAUGHT ME AND IM GLAD YOU DID..

Running is the greatest talent that god have given me.
It felt great running 4km for 2 consecutive days.
Another kilogram lost is a day called to be celebrated.
I do not need to be pole thin.. I just need to be slim, lean and fit.
Bye bye fats, you suck!

To share with you guys something I learnt in my course,
BMI is not an accurate measurement of whether you are healthy or not.
Whats more, I am classified under underweight for the BMI calculation.
I am a live example to show that the calculation has problems so do not use it to gauge.

3am now and driving lesson at 830am, siannn..

607

2009-03-19T00:30:00.009+08:00

WHEN MEMORIES JUST ISNT ENOUGH TO FILL THE EMPTY HOLE..
I was feeling bored so I clicked on my archive and browsed through all my entries.
An aching pain stroke my heart as I went from the oldest to the newest.
All I felt was emptiness because I missed the people whom I used to hang out with.
Reminiscing those tiring secondary school days and packed up basketball schedules.
I could not control myself but to tear.. I miss it.
A change is clearly seen yet things just cannot be reversed.

606

2009-03-18T00:20:00.001+08:00

IT WAS NO ACCIDENT ME FINDING YOU..

HAPPY 17TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY DARLING!
Having you and being able to hold on to you is the greatest gift of my life.
I will love you for as long as I live and be the angel of your time.

17/03/2009
We went City Hall to walk around and caught "Coming Soon".

If you want to scare some nerve of yours, try watching this horror movie.
Many times during the movie, I felt like screaming out loud.
I was grabbing my boy's hand so tightly and trying to cuddle up to him.

605

2009-03-13T15:12:00.006+08:00

LAUGH AS MUCH AS YOU BREATHE AND LOVE AS LONG AS YOU LIVE..

SO WHAT IF TODAY IS FRIDAY THE 13TH?!
WHAT IS THE BIG HOO-HAA SIAL..

You know your life is a failure when:
1) The things you tried hard for was beyond your capabilities.
2) The things you wished for was beyond your imaginations.
3) The things you thought you could achieve was beyond your boundaries.
4) The things you loved was beyond your reach.

I stopped basketball because I did not have the talent and no one gave me a chance.
They chose to give the chance to those people whom I think just did not deserve what they got.
I stopped basketball because the things I wished I could do and thought I could do,
was actually like me being in a fairytale and marrying a handsome, charming prince.
I stopped basketball because I no longer can bring myself back to the game.
I promise I will not have anymore thoughts of returning to the game because if I do,
it proves that I am stupid enough to devote myself to a game that I will never get acknowledged.

Anyway, congratulations to Jurong B girls'09 for clinching the west zone title.

Though I do not know whether what I said would be appreciated, I just wanted to try..

604

2009-03-07T23:37:00.008+08:00

THE ONLY ROCK THAT I KNOW STAYS STEADY IS THE FAMILY..
I met my cousin and we went to walk around, from Raffles Place to Marina Square.
We talked about anything and everything under the sun.
Yknow, she is the one and only girl that I am actually able to share my secrets with.
Dinner was at The Cafe Cartel and shortly after, we headed back home.

603

2009-03-04T23:59:00.005+08:00

PREDICT THE UNEXPECTED AND EXPECT THE EXPECTED..
Inital plan was for Huiqi, Patricia, Avis and Phyllis to come my house to relax.
However, due to slight changes, the plan failed and we planned something else.
I met Phyllis at Jurong East and headed down to Vivocity to walk around first.
Thereafter, the 3 musketeers joined us and we went to have dinner at Japanese Gourmet Town.
The dishes that we ordered, except Darren's, were super not value for money!
Then, we headed down to Keppel Bay Tower's TCC by the bay to settle for desserts.
Guess what? Our bill for the day totalled up to around $240.
我们实在太厉害了!
We slacked at the bridge and took many photos.

602

2009-03-02T01:29:00.015+08:00

I HAVE A GREAT FAMILY AND I FEEL VERY CONTENTED..
Today is my elder brother's 22nd birthday.
Yesterday, we went to The Carlton Hotel to have buffet for a mini celebration for him.
Thereafter, we went to Bakerzin to buy their half-priced Oreo Cheesecake.
Last year, we had a very grand birthday celebration as he was passing his 21st.
It just seemed like all had happened yesterday but in a blink of an eye, 1 year has past.

Though I hate adding years to my age, growing up is still inevitable.
I ponder over how my future would be and it kind of fears me.
No matter how much confidence I have that I will succeed in the future,
there are still hidden anxiety that was never displayed in my daily feelings.
There are several things I need to learn to do now.
Out of several things I can list, learning to save money is the most important out of all.
I always have temptations to buy new clothes, shoes and accessories.
No.. I need to stop those habits. I need to!
Loads of tuition and I have to save all the money I have earned.

Saying about a need, I need to lose weight.
I do not like and hate looking bulky.
Seriously, I detest the sight of me having excessive flesh popping out of my clothes.
I cannot stand it.

Anyway, I will be going for Superstar Virgo with my dad's employees.
Whatsmore, my boy is coming along. YAY! XD
I feel so relax this year but after this year, I guess things will have to change.

FYP MEETING LATER, FAST FAST FINISH, FAST FAST RELAX~ (2AM NOW)

Wah, I do not like my hair.. Ugly me, ugly shit, ugly ugly ugly.

Very random post.. Let me end with, HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY BROTHER! :)

601

2009-02-26T01:39:00.010+08:00

A HUG WORTH A THOUSAND WORDS, A FRIEND WORTH MORE..
After my second driving practical, I met Amelia, Joanna and Yushan at Town.
We had Din Tai Fung at Wisma Atria for dinner.
Thereafter, we walked to The Heeren to buy my brother's birthday present,
and to also eat dessert at The Dessert Story.
The bitchy auntie was so bias that she gave me like only 3/4 cup of Chocolate ice.
(SO UNPROFESSIONAL! LOUSY DAO CHAO JI WU DI DA BEN DAN AH. CHI DA BIAN!)
Last stop was outside the shopping mall where we took pictures for like 30minutes? Lol.
Anyway, more pictures at Facebook.
I am so lazy to post all my pictures in my blog because I have the wait for it to load.. O.O
When I was taking train back home, I got so super pissed off. Why?
The train stopped at midway between stations for few minutes and,
stopped at different stations for like 5 minutes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I signed up for the Adidas Sundown Marathon but would not be able to participate,
because my family, my boyfriend and I are going Europe just on the day of the event.
I do not know whether I should be happy or sad.
I thought I could complete my first ever marathon in May but guess not now.

OH, AND I FEEL SO FREAKING ASSHOLY FAT PLEASE.
OH, AND I FEEL SO FREAKING ASSHOLY FAT PLEASE.
OH, AND I FEEL SO FREAKING ASSHOLY FAT PLEASE.
OH, AND I FEEL SO FREAKING ASSHOLY FAT PLEASE.
OH, AND I FEEL SO FREAKING ASSHOLY FAT PLEASE.
OH, AND I FEEL SO FREAKING ASSHOLY FAT PLEASE.
I HATE IT, I HATE IT, I HATE IT, I HATE IT, I HATE IT, I HATE IT!!

600

2009-02-22T02:01:00.004+08:00

WHEN THE STARS AND MOON DROP DOWN FROM THE SKY..

I injured my finger again.
I think I am just not meant to play basketball anymore.
Each time I play, I hurt 1 finger and the swell is really big please.
I coloured my nails because they are superb short.
I cut my freaking long nails because I wanted to play basketball and then.. I got injured.
Fortunately, I cut my nails if not my whole fingernail may have came off.

Why so? Probably its just meant to be.

599

2009-02-18T01:47:00.008+08:00

LIFE IS NOT ABOUT FINDING YOURSELF BUT CREATING YOURSELF..
I am over the moon, on clouds nine, ecstatic, jubilant and thrilled to the bits.
(Basically all the adjectives that is able to describe that I am happy!)
My first practical lesson is on 23rd of February 2009, Monday.
Whats adding more to my excitement is that I only need to wait 2 months for my practical test.
(This is according to my driving instructor.)
Oh my god, it just feels like a dream come true.
God knows why but I am feeling very happy now.

Anyway, meet my maid who has been working for my family for 21 years.

Maid: "Ask your driving instructor whether he got insurance or not."
Me: Stare at her.
Maid: "Maybe you can also ask whether he is married with kids or not."
Me: Staring at her. "I will be a good driver loh. He do not need to worry."
Come on, I will be an extra precautious driver.. Fret not! HEHE!

I am happy so I take picture.. cannot meh? :D

BOY, HAPPY 16TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!
I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE YOU LATER.
YOU ARE TOO LOVELY TO BE RESISTED.

598

2009-02-17T02:06:00.011+08:00

YOU FILL MY HEART AND WARM MY BED..

I read the March issue of CLEO within a night. (which I usually would take 2)
Thereafter, I went on to stare at my laptop by blog hopping and facebooking.
It is getting late (time check: 230am) and I am getting hungrier and hungrier and hungrier..

I am like craving for so many things now.
1) Honey Stars, you are oh so dear to me.
2) Pepper Lunch, why are you so near yet so far?
3) My boy, I need your cuddles in order to sleep early.

I have a sloth of teddy bears in my room and 3 are from my boy, more to go, more to go..

I want to buy an oven but my mother do not allow.
I want to bake for my boy, want is a want!

I do not need diamonds, branded goods nor money to be happy.
All I need is you and your love to be with me forever.

597

2009-02-16T00:43:00.006+08:00

MY LIFE WOULD SUCK WITHOUT YOU SO MUST BE WITH ME HOR..

Wednesday 11/02/2009,
I bought a Michael Kors watch because my Fossil watch failed me by breaking apart.
We had dinner at Crystal Jade and went to watch "Defiance".
The movie was rather ERFGHBN because at times,
they did not provide subtitles when they were speaking foreign languages.

(Now, I like to pin my hair up because I want flawless facial skin.
Imagine, because of this, I have to apply lots of products on my face.
Nevertheless, I think it is worth it.)

Friday 13/02/2009,
I PASSED MY ADVANCED THEORY,
GOT MY PROVISIONAL DRIVING LICENCE
AND NOW I CAN START GOING PRACTICAL LESSONS.
I cannot wait for the day that I get my license.

Saturday 14/02/2009,
Like every other years, my family and I would go Paya Lebar's temple to "add luck".
We had to wait for 4 hours for our turn and per turn only took 5 minutes.
Doh, reached home and my boy was already at my house.
To me, I do not need to spend $100+ on lunch/dinner on Valentines day.
All I need and wish for is to be able to spend quality time together.

Boy, you are all that I ever wanted and more than I could ever wish for.

596

2009-02-02T02:48:00.006+08:00

I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD FIND SOMEONE LIKE YOU..

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

What am I to do with 11 weeks of holiday?
When there is school, I dread it and keep wanting to skip.
When there is holiday, I have to find things to occupy myself.
Would you prefer going to school or lazing around at home doing nothing?

Chinese New Year goodies are too irresistable and sinful.
I need to run to slim down.

Anyway, its time to play real mahjong and not Viwawa's wahjong.

♥ My boy: We need to take pictures together soon. It is a must! :D

595

2009-01-31T02:18:00.010+08:00

因为有了你，我的生活才增添了不少的欢乐。。

不知道为什么，最进超喜欢用华语来讲话。
我还记得以前在中学的华文课上，我最讨厌做的东西就是朗读。
虽然我认识那些字而且还会它的读音，但是总是会读错音，不知到为什么。
我还记得哥哥有一次还说我讲话语的时候，很象外国人在讲华语。
最不可思议的就是我的'o' 水准actually能考取一个b4，还算不赖吗！
我现在是靠电脑的帮忙才能写出这么多的句子。
我看啊，如果叫我写一篇文章都难咯。
我把很多华文字都给忘记了。
如果我每天都这样update我的博客，我看我的命会短了很多。

我没有东西做的时候，就会乱乱edit我的照片。

我很excited，因为我的relatives会来我的家，而且我的男朋友会在我的家过夜。
Anyway, 是等一下，因为现在已经3am了。

你就是我的唯一。
我只想永远和你在一起。

594

2009-01-29T02:15:00.000+08:00

CAUSE NOBODY WANTS TO BE THE LAST ONE THERE..

Chinese New Year was pretty much like any other year's.
I wonder what makes me anticipate for Chinese New Year so much when I was a kid.
It is getting bland-er and bland-er and bland-er..
Still no doubt that it has been a very good get together for everyone,
especially those relatives whom I actually see once a year. - which is like majority of them
What was additional in the Cow Year is the presence of my boyfriend.
I pretty much like the feeling of his presence.. somewhat like he belongs to my family already.

Even though it would still be long before I get married, I ponder over it very much.
I have witnessed couples choosing the path of divorce because they no longer love each other.
The pain which was inflicted to the surrounding people was noticeably visible.
No one knows what lies for him/her in the future and,
never would they know whether their love relationship would last till their death do them part.
Somehow, now I am kind of reluctant to get married because,
I am afraid that things might not go the way I want them to be.

For your information, my hair has been highlighted red and my fringe is freaking short.. :(
Nevermind about that.. My philosophy: HAIR WILL GROW!

593

2009-01-18T23:44:00.013+08:00

BECAUSE OF YOU, I LEARN ABOUT LOVE EVERYTIME..
Again, as usual, I had tuition and met my boy after that.
We headed to town and walked, walked, walked, walked..
Heeren -> Paragon -> Tangs -> Fareast -> Isetan -> Taka -> Lucky Plaza -> Heeren O.O
We had dinner at Lucky Plaza with dishes like Ayam Bakar and Sotong with Rice.
Feeling that our stomach was not full enough, we had dinner at Heeren's Shokudo.
Like what I did yesterday, after Shokudo, was dessert at Dessert Story.
We shared Mango Ice and I think the Strawberry Ice which I had yesterday, was nicer.
Yeah, and finally after walking around for 2 days, I bought a white bottom at M)phosis.
Also, I bought a really nice sky-blue-alike Good Society Jeans at Queen's Couture.

I need to stop spending money from today onwards.
If I really decide to further my studies and is unable to get into a local university,
I might consider going for private degree.
As such, I would like to rely on myself in paying the school fees.

Shokudo Streets of Japan.

Grilled Whole Squid and Grilled Prawn with Bacon.

Mushroom and Cheese Omelette.

Xoxo.

My face looks so fat loh.. Tsk.

ONCE AGAIN, HAPPY 15TH MONTH DARLING! :)
Life is so meaningful with you by my side.

592

2009-01-17T11:59:00.003+08:00

HOLD A TRUE FRIEND WITH BOTH YOUR HANDS..
I woke up at 750am to give tuition from 830am to 1030am and 11am to 130pm.
Guess what? I was practically trying very hard to keep my eyes open wide.
Yawning trend was hitting me hard on my head.
I just do not like the feeling of being so restless. Zzzzzzz..
I had only 4 hours of sleep so what to expect from this night bird tutor?

I was supposed to meet Josiah at Boon Lay yet I headed off to Lakeside to meet Yichuan.
Josiah woke up at the time we were suppose to meet. How cool was that?
So the both of us headed off towards town and first stop was Fareast Plaza.
It was after we walked the whole shopping mall that we met up with Josiah. -.-
We walked around town and had dinner at Heeren's Shokudo Street of Japan.
After that, we had dessert at Dessert Story just outside Shokudo.
(Pardon me for bad quality images because I failed to bring out my digital camera yet again.. :()

Iwate Mushroom Soup.

$17.00 worth of dish with only 9 slices of sashimi.

Some tofu that looked like Mapo tofu and Teriyaki Chicken Cheese and Mayo Pizza.

Salmon and Egg Don.

Mocha Ice, Strawberry Ice and Mango Ice.

Me, Josiah and Yichuan.
(Yknow the tip-toe trick?)

Yichuan and Josiah.
(Yknow the bending trick?)

Yichuan and me.
(Yknow the Giant and the Elf trick?)

591

2009-01-17T02:51:00.006+08:00

TOMORROW WILL BE OUR 15TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY.

TO: KYAN KEW CHIN YONG.

Many times, I wished to express the way I feel for you, the way I love you, everything to you..
yet I always get caught up with words and they just seem to escape away from me.
I am not profound in English vocabulary but,
I hope whatever is written below is able to convey deeply the feelings I have for you.
In the beginning, you may not treat me as well as I wanted you to or,
ever neglected me because of your friends or playing computer games.
I still was very reluctant to break free from you because I believed you were the one for me.
You made many big, obvious changes and I am very proud of you for being able to do so.
Not many people can change for someone, but you did it for me, thank you! :)
When I get a little grouchy or start wrecking up the past over and over again,
you never seem to ever want to let go of me.
I know you believe one day I will stop doing whatever I am doing now, so I promise you,
for you I will change for the better, like how you did it for me.
Many poets always mention "when you love someone, you do not need a reason."
I have a reason for loving you and that is because you love me as much as I do.
I am not obliged to return your love for me but,
I am more than willing to give you what you give me in return because,
I want you to be able to feel the way I am feeling right now.
Even though I always have nightmares, I still believe I am the happiest girl on the Earth.
I managed to feel what it is like to be able to fall for someone and be loved back in return.
What more can I ask for?
Darling, I am sorry for mentioning about dying repeatedly.
I promise you that I will not say it ever again because,
I want to be by your side to walk through ups and downs in your life, with you.
I will not give up this position of mine to another girl by dying.
I want to be the one going through the biggest ceremony of your life, walking down the aisle, saying yes to the vow, bear children for you and lie in the next coffin beside you.
Even death cannot separate us.. we'll be together forever.
I need you like how much the world needs the sun to survive,
I love you.

WITH LOTS OF LOVE,
GERALDINE KWEK LAY YIN.

590

2009-01-06T23:13:00.012+08:00

SOMETIMES THE HEART SEES WHAT IS INVISIBLE TO THE EYE..
I went to town with my boy.
We had Swensens for lunch.
Thereafter, we walked over to Paragon to shop for my mother's birthday present.
Eventually, I bought a Calvin Klein Jeans top for her.
After that, I went to give tuition and cabbed over to NTU to watch RP girls vs SMU girls.
Adrenaline just rushes through my blood.. the ever eagerness to have that feel again.
I skipped dinner and I am feeling hungry now.
I am so tempted to like call for Macdonalds delivery but it is too sinful and disgusting.
Why disgusting? Ask Zhimei. :D

Tomato Garlic.

US Hot Dips Fries.

Crayfish Pasta.

Fish and Chips.

589

2009-01-04T23:30:00.006+08:00

CHEESE AND CRACKERS, NUTS AND PIES, WE WILL BIND..
It was a day to town with Maryann and Zhimei.
Initially had more people but many backed out so left the 3 of us.
We went to watch "Seven Pounds" at Cineleisure.
I think the starting needs HUGE improvement to prevent people like Zhimei from sleeping!
Overall, the storyline, in my opinion, is fabulous and touching.
Imagine yourself having to give different organs to 7 different people, can you do that?
Thereafter, we had dinner at Fish and Co. at Heeren.
We went to walk around and headed home.
My hair was damn cui today please.. I need to trim it soon.

Maryann's Clam Chowder Soup.

Zhimei and Maryann.

you make my heart wonder and ponder..

588

2009-01-03T23:08:00.005+08:00

WHEN THE STARS AINT SHINING AS BRIGHT AS USUAL TONIGHT..
We went to The Ritz Carlton to have early eat out for my mother's birthday.
Her birthday is on 09/01 but due to her prophecy of cannot celebrate later than birthday,
so explains an early celebration lohzxzxz, she happy jiu hao lohzxzxz, correct or notzxzxzx?
My family, my boy and my maid was there and the bill sum-ed up to near $600 after discount.
Yeah, we were practically eating gold and diamonds throughout the whole buffet dinner.
Needless to say, the service and food were good, like you know, as usual.
Pictures are not very clear because I was using my handphone, so pardon me okay?

Pictures of some food:

im just not good enough as yet, how?

and like fuck, i feel like turning my head and walk away.

587

2009-01-01T21:25:00.007+08:00

YOU GIVE ME SOMETHING, THE KEY TO YOUR HEART..
I went to Park Royal for my dad's company lunch.
Nothing much happened, so pictures time dude.

First picture taken in 2009, I (L) U!

Another year awaiting us. Cannot wait man!

Siblings.

Lookalike?

YOU MESMERIZE ME DAOOOOOOO~

Men of the house.

Can you spot the faces in the orchirds?

586

2008-12-30T23:28:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GREATEST DADDY EVER..
He is a great dad because:
1) he works very hard to earn money for the family for us to enjoy
2) he tries to give what he can as a father
3) he does not succumb to bitches' seductions
4) he is very loyal and faithful to my mother
5) he loves us super duper so much
6) he is going to buy a car for my brother and I
7) he always try to plan an overseas trip whenever the company's schedule is not so packed
8) he is a man of his words
9) he is willing to give me money to set up my own business
10) he is knowledgeable
(achieved $1000 in "Bai Wan Da Ying Jia" because he answered his $16,000 question wrongly)

We went to the Jurong Point 2's Zhou's Kitchen to have a birthday dinner for my daddy.
I must say the food there is pretty satisfying to the stomach and definitely worth every penny.

Let me state my New Year's resolution since I know I will not be blogging tomorrow.

1) slimmer, thinner, prettier, cuter, sexier, healthier, fitter.. blah.

2) earn alot of money and learn how to save every dollar that I have earned

3) complete 2 marathons (sundown and standard chartered)

Adding on with 2 constants in my New Year's resolution,

4) my family to stay healthy and happy

5) my boy to love me and be with me till old and wrinkly

That's all,

happy 2009 everyone! (:

585

2008-12-27T11:59:00.010+08:00

AFTER A DAY, YET AFTER ANOTHER..
I woke up freaking damn early to go back Jurong to play match with juniors.
(For your information, I cancelled my tuition to be there.
I do not care whether you appreciate it or not.
At least I know I have tried as much as I can to always be updated and try to be of help.
Lim bei's time is = to money okay.
If you ever have forgotten, let me remind you, I did dedicate 2 months of my life on you all.
I also remember telling you that I could have chose to work and earn money instead of being there,
but I chose to be there because I know you needed help and I wanted to help.
It may be 2 years ago but without me being there, think about the difference in your play today.
Your layups, your shootings, your defences, I may not have taught you well but I did my part.
Lim bei need to give tuition, go school (830AM - 4PM) and accompany family and boyfriend.
LIM BEI IS NOT AS FREE AS BEFORE.
NOT ONLY LIM BEI BUT EACH AND EVERY SENIOR ARE NOT AS FREE AS BEFORE.
AND IN THE PAST, WE HARDLY EVER GOT HELP FROM SENIORS TOO.
SO PLEASE.. UNDERSTAND.)

Scattered groups, isolated individuals and extroversive personality,
WILL NEVER PLAY WELL AS A TEAM BECAUSE,
YOU ARE A TEAM, YOU ARE ONE AND NOT TWO.

NIN NA MA, JITAO NOT PAIN ONE LOR, MOTHER CHEESE BUY OKAY..

IF YOU HAPPEN TO BE UPSET WITH ANYTHING THAT,
1) I HAVE WRITTEN IN MY BLOG,
2) I SAID TODAY,
PLEASE KINDLY EMAIL ME, CALL ME OR TEXT ME.
IF YOU DO NOT HAVE LIM BEI'S EMAIL ADDRESS OR NUMBER, TOO BAD.

WANT TO KNOW WHAT I CAN SAY ABOUT YOUR GAME, EMAIL ME.
IF NOT, BYEBYE.

584

2008-12-21T23:28:00.011+08:00

WE WILL SURVIVE IN THE GOLDEN DAYS FAIRYTALE STORIES..
Yes! My boy and I met, my boy and I met, my boy and I met!
I am so happy because we did not meet each other for 5 days.
Aww, I missed him so much, I love him so much, xoxoxoxoxoxo.

We went Vivocity and walked, walked, walked.
Dinner was set at White Dog Cafe with comfortable seats.

(L)

Triple Mushroom Soup.
Super nice soup with tasty mushrooms.
(I LOVE MUSHROOMS!)

Seriously, my face is not as fat as shown in above, i think?

Salmon Creamy Spaghetti with Wild Mushrooms.
Although salmon rather stiff, everything else was perfect.
(I LOVE CREAMY SPAGHETTI!)

Whole Baby Chicken.
Chef's recommendation with really tender chicken meat and crispy fries.

Key to my heart.

Bye! *BLEAH :P

583

2008-12-20T23:59:00.003+08:00

SWING TO THE LEFT, SWING TO THE RIGHT, SWING SWING SWING..
I met Yichuannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn and she was freaking funny in her first call.
Still so auntie, still so funny, still so cute, still so paiseh everytime!
We went to Hajilane, Bugis Street, Bugis Junction and Jurong Point.
Everywhere there is so oh-my-god-damn-shit many people.
I hate crowds because they make me have intolerable headaches.
Also, I spent a bomb but who cares when I have enjoyed it and have loved the things I bought.

Dinner at Lai Lai Casual Dining..

Scheming look. HIAK HIAK HIAK!

Freak, my hair is sibei cui please.

Clockwise from top: Fried Squid, Pepper and Salt Chicken and Taiwan Vermicelli.

Left to right: Beef Noodle and Red Milk Bubble Tea.

After I got home, I got into a very jumpy mood so yeah, jump jump and snap.

And yes, congratulations to me, I have lost 2kg..

Please don't come back to me ever, ever, ever again.

581

2008-12-15T11:59:00.001+08:00

AN OBSESSION THAT SHOULD NOT BE MISSED..
I have been very busy playing Facebook's Pet's Society.
I do not care if I am 18, 20, 30 or even 50, I still like this kind of games.
Take a look a my kawaii-nehzxzx pet named helluva.

My boy and I went to watch Quarantine at The Cathay.
I think this is seriously a jaw-dropping vampire movie.
Throughout the whole movie, I practically was grabbing my boy's hand.
Like freaking scary please, my shiet..

I was supposed to go my dad's office to work today,
but due to my serious sleepless nights like only turning in at 4am,
I could not get up at 6am so I decided to continue having my sweet dreams.
On the contrary, I did not manage to earn $XXX today.

we'll stand on the earth together..

580

2008-12-14T16:32:00.010+08:00

EAT ALL YOU CAN WHEN YOU ARE STILL ALIVE..
Because when you are dead you would not be able to choose what you can eat,
you only get to eat those food that your family or relatives burnt for you,
(that is if you believe it happens in the real world though..)
or you cannot eat because basically you are dead.

FRIDAY
I slacked around at my boy's home and went to Bukit Panjang to watch match.
I am tempted, intrigued, intuited and overwhelmed with passion.

Tell me what can I do to lay my hands on it again.

SATURDAY
I was supposed to go play ball at Kaixuan court with Amelia,
but change of plans as it seemed as though the weather would turn out to be a bad one.
Thus, in order to save a wasted trip, I decided to go out with my parents.
We went to Vivocity and I bought alot of things.
I bought a Topshop jeans, a Topshop shirt and 3 Armani Exchange t-shirt.
(Armani Exchange was having sales like 50% off for everything except new arrivals.)
Thereafter, we had dinner at Imperial Herbal Restaurant.
We ordered 3 set meals which are individual servings, which cost up to $70+ per pax.

Eight Treasure Tea,
ingredients include chrysanthemum, red dates, etc.. tasted not bad!

I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURE OF MY ALL-TIME-FAVOURITE, EGG WHITE FLUFFY.

Buddha Jump Over The Wall,
although it looks yucky but seriously, it is yummy.

Dangui Chicken,
super tasty, tender and slim chicken, delicious sauce.

Tofu Mushroom with Vegetable,
mushroom was tasteless, vegetable was averagely done, tofu tasted unique.

Chicken Shredded Noodle,
I do not like it because it had alot of vegetables and was oily.

Sour Plum,
sour, sweet, tasted like any average joe's plum.
(My mother and I chose this.)

Mint,
I SERIOUSLY DO NOT LIKE THIS.
One mouth and I was like :S :S :S :S.. Yewk.
(My dad chose this.)

SUNDAY
Stay home day.

Boy, I miss you so much..

579

2008-12-07T22:35:00.005+08:00

THE WORLD IS CHANGING CONSTANTLY, AM I?

Saturday,
I went shopping with my mother, elder brother and boy at Orchard.
I had lunch at Deliferance with my mother.
I had dinner at Coca with the above mentioned and my father.
We bought alot of things: 2 bags, lots of clothes, lots of lingeries.
(No picture because 1) lazy and 2) did not bring my camera.)

Sunday,
My house started re-painting and have only completed the third level today.
My room is full of the smell of paint and super messy.
It was supposed to have a contrast of yellow wall and white ceiling,
but there is obviously not much difference.

When we keep letting the past haunt us,
nothing get the better out of us.
I cannot forget and neither can I stop thinking.

578

2008-11-30T22:25:00.007+08:00

WEAVED THROUGH THE DARKEN DAYS..
I had dental in the morning and I have replaced my purple brackets with PINK! :D
Thereafter, I trained down to Sembawang to take a lift from my boy's brother to Expo.
We visited SITEX and like as per normal, it was crowded with people.. Totally squeezy.
My boy and I went to Terminal 3 by train.

If you added me on MSN, you will know what this means.

We had Lerkthai for dinner and I must say the food varieties are wider than Thai Express.

Ice Pandan.

Mango and Prawn Roll.

Grilled Cuttlefish.

Fried Thai Tang Hoon.

Tom Yum Prawn Fried Rice, which there was no prawn at all.

Boy, you have been great,

continue to be till death do us part..

577

2008-11-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

WHEN THE HEADS TURNED AROUND TO LOOK AT ME..
Jun and I shopped at Far East Plaza for 3 hours today.
This is the first time I spent 3 hours at Far East Plaza, practically shopping.
Jun had the intention to buy Christmas Party dresses yet she bought nothing.
Me? I had no intentions of buying anything but I bought clothes today.
Thereafter, we met Marcus and Serene (new friend made today) at Sweet Indulgz.
The food and ambience is great maybe because the place too remote and no one knows about it.
After dinner, we walked to Red Dot Musuem and took some pictures.
Then, we trained to Esplanade to chill and came home after that.

Chicken and Mushroom Pizza.

Spaghetti Mushroom

Serene and Marcus, they have been together for 3 years plus and they are super sweet!

Spaghetti Salmon and Mushroom

Jun, the 28th of November birthday girl!

Sweet Indulgz's hot favourite: Tiramisu.. Super soft and yummy.

Red Dot Musuem..

Esplanade..

Jun asked me to JUMP and take pictures.

Im fucking fat and I need holidays for me to have time to run..

I hate being fat.

576

2008-11-28T21:52:00.004+08:00

THE MOST ENJOYABLE TEAM THIS SEMESTER..
Today was Leisure Planning and Programming.
Fortunately, the facilitator chose not to change the team because he found there was no point.
Thus, the 5 of us have been wrecking the class with our noise and laughters.
We simply could talk about anything and everything under the sun.
SIBEI COOL SIOLZXZX..

However, bad thing about Republic Polytechnic is that we constantly have to change class.
So, if we want to maintain close friendship, I guess this would be tough.
Nevertheless, I will remember every moment spent in this class.

Whatever it takes, I just want to be with you.

I (L) U, my boy.

575

2008-11-23T23:04:00.009+08:00

WHAT A NIGHT TO SPARE AND SPEND..
My family and I had dinner at Plaza Park Royal.
It is the past favourite buffet place that we always patronize.
Even though the food choices were not as much as Shangri La's The Line,
the food were really commercalized and definitely likeable by all ages.
Thereafter, we went to take The Singapore Flyer and I swear it was a memorable experience.
I was so enthusiastic about the ride and totally forgot that it will be 162m above sea-level.
Being acrophobic, I did not even dare walking around the huge cabin.
I merely sat down on the chair, looking at the floor and had no balls to look around.
"Like WHATTHE? Go The Singapore Flyer and then did not enjoy the scenery?!" YAH.
There was a time where my younger brother kept pulling me up from the seat.
I tried picking up the courage to stand but had soft legs and fell on the ground.
Duh, Geraldine is stupid.
The photos below are taken by my father because I was having some difficulty, you know? :)

Anyway, at the highest point of the flyer, I made a wish..
There was a show saying, "Go to the highest point possible, make a wish and it will come true."
I do hope so!

For the first time out of 5 years, I think I look nicer tying up my hair.

574

2008-11-22T16:48:00.004+08:00

BEAR LIGHT, BEAR BRIGHT, THE FIRST BEAR I SEE TONIGHT..
I packed my room again.. So much more neater, cleaner, pleasant and prettaye.
Seriously, I have like tonnes of bear and I am at my wits end as to how to deal with them.
The bottom picture is at 1 corner of my room which I estimate is only 1/5 of my collection.
I might choose to donate my bears to an orphanage BUT I do not want to give them dusty bears.
However, I do not know how to clean away the dust..
Anyone has any idea?

Rain rain, go away, come again another day.
Geraldine has to/ need to run today.
[/edit] I did not run because the sky appeared red, which meant possibility of raining very high,
but the sky tricked my feelings and wants me to be a fat bimbotic girl.

Yet another day that made me feel like..

573

2008-11-21T19:01:00.006+08:00

I WANNA HOLD YOU TILL THE FEAR IN ME SUBSIDES..

Yesterday, I ran 6km moderately fast and my calf muscles are superbly hard now.

I drew for the past 2 nights.
The first drawing will be participating in the Tshirt category,
while the second drawing will be participating in the laptop sleeve category.
The first picture has shark's fins, dinosaur's eyes and crocodile's teeth.
I drew them in boxes so that it will appear super cool and rather than just 1 animal in there.
The second picture is robots sitting in the sky, above the city and dating.
What is more cooler than looking at the world from the top?
I would love to if I could.
One more drawing to go..

OGAY, DINNER TIME!

572

2008-11-17T20:51:00.010+08:00

SCREAMING AND SCREECHING FOR JOY..
I PASSED MY BTT, I PASSED MY BTT, I PASSED MY BTT!
I cannot wait for year 2009!
Why?

1) Celebrate the special dates again!
Me like, me love, me enjoy! *BIG GRINS.
[14/02, 27/08, 05/09 and 18/10]

2) FTT and PT and DRIVE!
[FTT: 02/01, PT: kiv, drive: after PT!]

3) My business, maybe.

I watched Madascagar with my boy and the cartoons are superbly cute.

MAMAMIA, HERE I GO AGAIN,
My my, how can I resist you?

571

2008-11-16T19:29:00.003+08:00

WHEN MY LIFE IS FILLED WITH FAMILY LOVE..
Initially I had to be at Sengkang to help out my dad for the tree planting day,
but I was no longer needed and thus I slacked at home the whole day.
I was actually assigned to sell cactus as my dad was required to put up a stall.
When my dad knew that there was no shelter, he told me to stay at home.
I know my dad loves me.
He has been grooming me and teaching me to be a boss these days. Stressssss..

My parents have intention to pass over my dad's business to me,
and they asked me to follow my dad around in the upcoming holiday.

Then, my mother passed me a Canon Ixus 80 she bought for me yesterday.
When she told me she bought me a PINK digital camera, my heart stopped beating for a second.
Even though I would have preferred a HOT PINK digital camera,
the camera she gave me was good enough.
I remembered her calling me yesterday asking, "You got digital camera?"
I replied, "No" then she hanged up already.
Then taaaaaaaa-dahhhhh. Sweeeeeeeee..

I slacked at home until 530pm and prepared to go out for a run.
My elder brother drove my younger brother and I to Jurong West Stadium.
I ran a pathetic 4km and my younger brother ran 2km.
I am seriously not happy with my run today because I could not receive enough oxygen.
As a result, everyone I saw was in purple colour and I really felt dizzy.
I did not run very fast and yet had such symptoms kicking inside me.
I know there are 2 reasons behind this:
1) Phlegm blocking air passageway,
2) Fitness has seriously deteriorated.
Therafter, I called my elder brother and he came to drive us back home.

570

2008-11-15T23:25:00.003+08:00

WHO KNOWS WHAT LIES FOR ME IN FUTURE..
Again, a day out with my boy to Dhoby Ghaut.
First was to have dinner at Plaza Singapura's Hot Tomato.
We had set meal: soup of the day, choice of drink and choice of meal.
Soup of the day was mushroom soup and was like campbell's.
I had Ice Lemon Tea which was totally like water and Baked Mushroom and Chicken.
My boy had Lime Juice which was sooooo sour and Fish and Chips.
Thereafter, we had dessert at Ben and Jerry's!!
It has been ages since I last ate my favourite flavour, Sweet Cookies and Cream.
In addition, I had Chunky Monkey in waffle dish and my boy had chocolate fudge brownie.
We watched "The Coffin" at The Cathay and I think it was very scary.
I seldom jump in ghost movies but this movie really made me startled alot.

569

2008-11-14T18:37:00.004+08:00

HEAVEN IS SINGING US A LOVE SONG TONIGHT..

Wednesday:
I went to Acer, Ikea and Queensway alone.
Acer: repair my stupid laptop.
Ikea: to buy decorations for my room.
Queensway: roaming around like a headless chicken.
Thereafter, I took bus to Woodlands to meet my boy and the journey was like an hour?
Nausea kicked in me while surviving on only a piece of bread from 9+am to 4+pm.
We had Seoul Garden for dinner.
It has been like a year since I ate Seoul Garden and thus, I enjoyed it even though it is oily!

Thursday:
I cooked up a really horrible dish of mushroom.
Fortunately, my boy and I survived through lunch with rice and chicken that I bought outside.
I am sure I will cook delicious food next time, give me time..

Friday:
My boy and I went to Acer to collect my laptop.
Again, we went to Ikea to get stuff to decorate my room.
We came back to Jurong Point and caught the movie "Quantum of Solace".
I think this movie has a rather well done script but seriously,
I could not see their faces when they were fighting and like super fast movements.
That made me suffered slight headache.

I mentioned I had a haircut on Sunday right?
BANGS!
The scar on my chin was due to the result of my itchy hands.

My boy said I look like JOKER (in poker cards) in the picture below.

568

2008-11-10T19:34:00.002+08:00

RANT, ROAR, RAH..
3 combination of feelings:
LONELY, UPSET AND TIRED.

Nowadays, I kind of have insomnia.
I would try sleeping at 10.30pm and only sleep at 12plus.
Then, I would wake up at 3plus and 5plus and again, have difficulty falling asleep.
Whats more, I had to wake up at 6.50am for school.
Freak.

567

2008-11-09T20:33:00.006+08:00

I LIKE THE MOVE MOVE IT, YOU LIKE THE MOVE MOVE IT..
8th of November 2008,
I stayed at home until evening and ran 6.4km at Jurong West Stadium.
Running is an enjoyment.
Yet at times for secondary reasons like losing weight, I get motivated to run.
I neeeeeeeeeeeeed to shed away my fats..

9th of November 2008,

My boy and I went to Jurong Point's Jean Yip to have a haircut.

The hairdresser told me I would not look nice with long hair.

He recommended that I keep a mid-length hair with slight perm.

My family met us at Jurong Point to have dinner buffet at Kuishin Bo.

Daddy-long-legs crabby..

My aim in life: earn 6 digit for my income after I graduate..

I see it coming.

566

2008-11-07T21:41:00.003+08:00

WHEN GOD GAVE ME AN UNKNOWN GIFT..

I like toddlers, babies, young kids, children..
When I see them, I would just naturally put a smile on my face.
I love their innocence, cuddlesome and adorableness.
I have a dream: to nuture them into aspiring adults.
I want to own a tuition centre or childcare centre where studying would be fun to them.
I live my life in hope of having an ability to change people's life.
I will be expedient to Singapore in this way, I guess?

Today after school, I ran 4km at Jurong West Stadium and,
I think I ran faster when I was training in Jurong or Kaixuan..
The feeling was magnificent.

565

2008-11-05T22:37:00.003+08:00

THE UPCOMING HERO OF THE WORLD..

Barack Obama (4th August 1961)
1. Used marijuana, cocaine and alcohol during High School days
2. Studied political science with a specialization in international relations
3. Graduated with Bachelor of Arts
4. Director of the Developing Communities Project (DCP) for 3 years
- staff grew from one to thirteen and its annual budget grew from $70,000 to $400,000
5. Entered Harvard Law School in late 1988 and graduated with Juris Doctor
6. US Senator in 2005
- 5th African American Senator in US history and 3rd to be popularly elected
NOW, president of United States.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Barack_Obama

90% of the news was about him. -.-

564

2008-11-04T22:06:00.005+08:00

Until You - Shayne Ward
Baby life was good to me
But you just made it better
I love the way you stand by me
Through any kind of weather
I dont wanna run away
Just wanna make your day
When you feel the world is on your shoulders
Dont wanna make it worse
Just wanna make us work
Baby tell me i will do whatever
It feels like nobody ever knew me until you knew me
Feels like nobody ever loved me until you loved me
Feels like nobody ever touched me until you touched me
Baby nobody, nobody, until you
Baby it just took one hit of you now
I'm addicted
You never know what's missing
Till you get everything you need, yeah
I don't wanna run away
Just wanna make your day
When you feel the world is on your shoulders
Don't wanna make it worse
Just wanna make us work
Baby tell me, I'll do whatever
It feels like nobody ever knew me until you knew me
Feels like nobody ever loved me until you loved me
Feels like nobody ever touched me until you touched me
Baby, nobody, nobody until you
See it was enough to no
If I ever let you go
I would be no one
Cos I never thought I'd feel
All the things you made me feel
Wasn't looking for someone until you
Nobody, nobody, until you

563

2008-11-03T21:39:00.002+08:00

WOULD YOU BE THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEED YOU?..
So, first day of school was really arduous for me despite sleeping at 10pm.
I woke up at 6.20am which was 30minutes earlier than my designated time.
When I was on the verge of embarking on a new dream, my alarm clock rang.
Sluggishly, I walked to my bathroom and did my usual routines.
I jaded at the thought of having to squeeze in the bus and train. Ugggh =/
School was really dreary.. Nutrition has always been like that.
Mood was getting on my way the whole day.

I am worried my future husband will have affair outside.
I have great imagination and fear in marriage.
It is not that my parents are not having a blissful marriage,
in fact they are setting great example and are very faithful to each other.
I am just being exposed to too many melancholy marriages which lead to divorce.
I am scared.
I guess I will have a tough time saying "Yes, I do" to my future spouse.

Anyway, I was bored and thus went to tie up my hair.
Tell me whether I should cut or keep it long.
PS: I want to keep it long but I am afraid that I might not look good in it.

562

2008-11-01T21:12:00.003+08:00

I WANT TO FEEL YOUR HEART BEATING FOR ME..

Cruel world, weird people.
I was watching mean girls and they said,
"Calling someone else ugly or fat does not make me happy."
I am mean.
I will stop.

Anyway, I think braces are becoming so out of fashion.
I think I should get it out soon.

The past you had before I had you means nothing to me,
what matters most is the present and our future.
I love you.

561

2008-10-31T23:35:00.013+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

WE WILL SHOW THE WORLD WHAT WE ARE MADE OF..

Yesterday:
I had professional profilling presentation.
Seriously, I did not feel a wee bit of excitement nor fear.
As I entered the agora hall, I felt queer.
I knew no one there and was totally clueless as to what to do.
I think I looked like a retard walking to and fro along the passageway.
Luckily, I saw Kaile and she asked me to go helpdesk.
We had to put blu-tack at the back of our posters.
So, when it was my turn to present, I did not know why, I started perspiring.
I wonder was it because it was hot or because I was scared.
But I know I stumbled over my words quite a number of times.

Today:
I went out with X and X (have to be kept confidential).
We ate at Xing Wang Hong Kong cafe and went around shopping.
I bought a t-shirt for myself and a t-shirt for my boy.
SALE EVERYWHERE..
It was a tiring yet enjoyable day.

Boy, thanks for waiting for me tonight..
We will be together till death do us part.
Please do not leave me.
I cannot do without you.
I love you.

560

2008-10-29T21:15:00.002+08:00

SO IT WAS FUN WHICH SPELLS SMILES..
Lunch was Crystal Jade: Black Pepper Chicken Udon, Deep Fried Dumpling, Fried Rice.
Oh yes, I finally got a vest. Tralalalalalalalala..
Purpose of today's outing was to get boxes for my room and print PP poster.
However, I did not manage to get any nice and right sized boxes. BOOHOOHOO!
Gladly, I printed out my poster but at a cost of $24.
Imagine I am throwing away $24 after tomorrow.
Stupid module, dumb enough, waste money..
While waiting for the poster to be printed out, we played arcade. :D

Boy, you mean so much to me..

559

2008-10-28T23:57:00.005+08:00

TIME PASS VERY FAST, CATCH IT IF YOU CAN..
I was talking to my younger brother (5years younger than me) about somethings.
Then, I came to realize my brother has grown so much.
Last time he was so small size, so petite, so naughty yet adorable..
I remember when he was just a baby that I would be the one putting him to bed.
My maid was busy with housework and my parents were working.
Nowadays, he keeps saying he is taller, TALLER, TALLER..
Whatsmore, always keep saying I am fat.
Nevertheless, I enjoy talking about stupid things with him.
The first 3 picture depicts when he was younger and the last 2 is where he flaunt his muscles.

My elder brother is of different character with the 2 of us.

In my opinion, he is more serious and dislike talking nonsense.

However, there are times where he would tease my younger brother.

HAHA, saying he is fat..

I would say my elder brother is very noble.

Without him, I guess we the 2 musketeers would end up flunking our results.

We both are very playful.

I guess without his strict guidance I would not even make to polytechnic.

Imagine a L1R4 of 45 to 16 within 5 months.

When everything repeats, we go wrong.

I am not happy, not happy, not happy!

I need to go shopping tomorrow.

I need to print my poster tomorrow.

BIG SAD FACE. ):

558

2008-10-27T20:19:00.004+08:00

WHAT A CLOSE SHAVE..
After giving tuition in the morning, I came home and had lunch.
Thereafter, I packed my room.
Why am I packing?
1) My room is very messy and dusty.
2) I have like all the secondary school books, for I do not know what reasons.
3) Repainting of my house in November.
(My room is not going to painted PINK because my mother say my lucky colour is cream.) ):
After packing, I wanted to bathe because I was covered with dusttttttt..
Then, as I wanted to close my shower door, it fell.
It fell towards the basin and luckily.. did not fell towards my direction.
As seen below, my glass door has shattered into pieces.
Sibei cool..

I did not run yesterday because I was freaking tired.
Friday I ran 4km super fast and Saturday 1 round at my neighbourhood.
Tired si..
I thought it would rain and thus did not run today.
If you think I am unreasonable, its alright.
You should know me.
I do not give a damn.

557

2008-10-26T22:29:00.007+08:00

ENOUGH OR NO ENOUGH, YOU DECIDE..
May be enough: Rest and recharge for school again and run to slim down.

May not be enough: One week only leh, where got enough? Hee. (Im are greedy! :D)

So basically for the past 7 weeks, school had been pretty alright.

Let's take a look at my UT grades!

Ignore that first UT for nutrition.. Totally trash because I scored D.

I expected like C at least, but whatever..

C+ was a total surprise, happiness and kept me startled for a week.

Law has never been a module I enjoyed because it is dry and C+, WAH!

But, I expect the second UT to be an F or E because I knew nuts about it.

A and B+, Leisure planning and psychology respectively..

I expected those grades though so nothing to be surprised with.

I expect the physiology UT to be errrrrrrrrrrrrr, C? or D?

And guess what, possibility of skipping the 3weeks of January would be very very high.

Maybe maybe, I would have to turn up for nutrition class though!

Nevertheless, I am proud of myself.

YAHBERDABERDOOOOOO~

CLICK ON IT ONLY IF YOU ARE INTERESTED..

Psychology:

Leisure planning:

556

2008-10-25T23:50:00.005+08:00

TONIGHT WILL BE THE NIGHT I FALL FOR YOU OVER AGAIN..
I gave tuition in the morning and came home to slack thereafter.
Although the sun was blazing hot, I went to run for a wee while.
I will post more about my upcoming week's run after this week is over.
In the evening, I met my dearest and we went to City Hall.
We had a marvellous dinner at Jack's Place.
Alright, pictures time! :)

God, please let me slim down during this week of run.. I beg you. ):

555

2008-10-24T21:59:00.005+08:00

IT'S TIME TO LEARN TO BE INDEPENDENT..
Leisure planning module was interesting and has always been interesting since day 1.
The module is very slack, fun and enjoyable.
The only module I look forward attending to, zai siol.
Fortunately, I HAVE VERY NICE TEAM MATES! :)
We would laugh in class super loud and I guess you can probably only hear our team's noise.
The girls would bitch and gossip then the only guy would try to cut in.
Yeah, today's problem statement was about structures in Republic Polytechnic for disabled.
We had to travel around in wheelchair and whoa, it is not easy travelling around okay!
The ramps in school are so steep.
When I rolled up, I was like "WAH, cannot man. Very tiring loh!"
My team did a very nice video. Chio-ness.

I am fat. (calf muscles, thighs, arms, tummy, face.. OMG FAT.)

554

2008-10-23T10:16:00.008+08:00

I DO NOT BELIEVE..
1) I have a car parked outside my house and I have to squeeeeeze taking public transport.
2) Singaporeans are so kia-su, inconsiderate and are a bunch of idiots.
(I wish I was never born a Singaporean.)
3) I have become so fat, like fatter than before.
4) I am comparing myself with people who I should not be doing so.
(Stop! Although they are pretty and thin, they are far from me in other things.)
5) Geraldine has no life.

Yah, I have to change.. CHANGE!
I have never ever wanted to feel this way in life.
You made me feel like I am a shithead, asshole with peabrain and ignorant.

553

2008-10-20T12:05:00.004+08:00

MEET SOON GIRLFRIEND AND LAOPO!

Its been awhile since we last sat down to chill and chat..
Its been awhile since we updated each other about our life..
Its been awhile since we camwhore like nobody's business..
Its been awhile since I heard girlfriend's loud voice to greet her friends..
Its been awhile since laopo and I would laugh at her..
Its been awhile since I heard laopo count girlfriend's vulgarities said a day..
Its been awhile.
I am sure it will soon change to NOW right? :)

552

2008-10-19T20:53:00.003+08:00

WHEN THE WORLD DOES MATTER..

See, my brother has double chin.
Each time I go out to run, I would ask him to tag along.
He will tell me "No, no, no.. Go yourself."
Then he will continue playing his computer game.
He will be starting his 2 months holidays this coming Thursday.
I guess we both will sign up for swimming course.
I need to run..
On the verge of becoming a fatty bimbo.

OH YAH! GOOD NEWS, GOOD NEWS..
I PASSED MY LAW UT BY SCORING C+ AND PSYCHOLOGY B+,
WHEN WE NO LONGER HAVE MODERATION ANYMORE.
HOW COOL, RIGHT? IM GOOD AT BEING TYCO SIOL.
I remember my year 1 both semester's computing maths module days.
Basically, I understood no shit and used my instincts to key in answers.
How did I do that?
I would read the question and would just key in the first number that comes to my mind.
Maybe, I am a hidden aladdin or a genie in the bottle.
I can get Bs for doing so.
*GRINS :)

551

2008-10-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY BOY AND I..

Based on the title, I guess you will be able to depict the contents of this post.
I was really excited about today's outing that I almost left house without bringing the present.
Fortunately, I felt something was amiss and in a blink of an eye, I remembered.
Of course I could remember it very easily.. Especially when today is a special day.
We headed to town.
We shared a plate of pathetic share of Spicy Fish Baked Pasta.
(Why did we share? You will know the reason why as you read on..)
We walked around Isetan and headed down to Far East.
I had the temptations to buy clothes but failed to do so,
because it either did not catch my attention or no size.
It sucks when I saw clothes I liked and it did not have my size.
Thereafter, we tried figuring out the way to walk to Shangri-La hotel.
As we walked on, we realized we were walking towards the wrong direction.
Thus, we decided to take bus to the nearest possible bus-stop.
After alighting, we had to walk quite a far distance like climbing slight slopes and such.
It was such a tough journey and I wished I had driving license so I could drive today.
We had dinner buffet at "The Line" at Shangri-La hotel which was $66++ per person.
I would say the food choices are too diverse that I simply did not have the ability to eat all.
There were different ethnic food: Indian, Malay, Italian, Western, Japanese and Chinese.
My boy claimed their clams/mussels (no idea is which) was super fresh.
He described it as, "it would slip down into your throat without even biting." *SLURPS! :S
I am not a seafood person.
I only knew their salmon sashimi and cold prawns were to my liking.
Their ambience for such an expensive buffet, to me, was not up to standard.
The seat was not spacious and the whole place felt really cramped and tight.
Their music was a sore to my ears and their service was not prompt enough.
If I were to compare Shangri-La with Intercontinental and Ritz-Carlton,
I would say Ritz-Carlton gets the victory.
Their seats are comfortable and after seating, I will feel so superb relaxed.
They had live music played and their service was very prompt.
Nevertheless, I really had a wonderful dinner tonight.
We walked to Orchard MRT station and I guess the journey there was essential for me.
I felt really bloated and was on the verge of vomitting.
After reaching the MRT station, I felt so much better.
Anyway, did I mention I was elated when I saw the present my boy gave me?
When I met him, I saw him carrying a medium sized "Calvin Klein" plastic bag.
Impromptu, I told him I knew he bought me a bag.
I hit on bull's eyes.
I recieved a tote aka sling-able bag.
For the whole day, I thought my present was only a "Calvin Klein" bag.
However, I was shocked when I saw a packed in "Agnes B" shirt.
I am so happy, so happy.. I am a happy girl! :D

KKCY, you will always be the one I love.
Many many more years to come by yeah?
I love you.. XOXO.

550

2008-10-17T14:50:00.000+08:00

I LOVE XIAOMAO! :)

549

2008-10-17T00:21:00.006+08:00

DO NOT READ THIS POST..
The time on my laptop says its 12:21AM.
Can you believe Geraldine is still up at this hour?
I was very tired from the moment I wake up till I reach home.
Now, my eyes are like widely open O.O.
Oh my god, I hope I do not fall sick soon.
Detest the taste of medicine and feeling weak daoooooooo~

Each night before I shut my eyes,
I keep thinking about my business plan.
Why so?
I guess its because part of my father's hard-earned money would be used.
I am worried that my business will fail.
God, please tell me I will succeed..

I have been randomly exercising.
What do I mean by that?
I run whenever I want to which is super duper random!
Each time I run I would run more than 4km because only after 4km then I will start perspiring.
Me no weird, me metabolism high.
Gain weight fast, lose weight fast.
(This explain why I am so fat now. Ya-bahh.)

I cannot wait for holidays!
ONE week holiday would start on the 25th of October.
Okay, at least a week, better than nothing right?
I am planning to run everyday on the weekday.
(Provided my mentality allows me to do so?)
Gym might be included though?
(Might because I have no faith in gym no more but I miss using the equipments.)
Monday- night run,
Tuesday- morning and night runs,
Wednesday- morning and night runs,
Thursday- morning run and,
Friday- morning and night runs.
I need to shed kilos and burn calories.
Accumulation of fats in my body is rapid, rapiddddddd duh.

30th of October is my poster presentation day!
Woohoo, faster get it over and done with.
I need to print my poster.
I need to pass this freaking module.

BERI BERI RANDOM DE POST AH.
AND I JUST REALIZED BLOGSPOT DO NOT PROVIDE PINK FONT!
LIKE HELLO, PINK IS THE NICEST AND SWEETEST COLOUR EVER?!?!?!